Day 28: Closing

So Today is that last day of this project and it has been harder then ever to not look in a mirror knowing that it is the last day. I have tried to remember to avoid the reflect surfaces and mirrors all day long. So far today I have felt like I have failed on this last day because I kept on seeing myself in all different types of surfaces that I have encountered today. Failing on the last day seems almost fitting because my project has come to close. It has been hard today because I had to go to Walgreens to pick up some photos that I had ordered, I had ushering duty for Big River at 1:30 till 5 pm and I went to a cookout at my teacher, D.W.'s (Dr. Williams) house where I didn't know the layout so I was unprepared for the amount of reflect surfaces that are in her home when I got there at 5:30 pm. I have decided that I will be taking down my post-it notes tomorrow inbetween the my first and second classes. I have felt really relieved that I haven't had the pressure to look in a mirror to double check that my hair is all in place because I know that I can ask my friends to tell me an honest answer. I feel like the real me has finally emerged from within me after 16 years of being repressed by the mirror me that had taken over my body in a sense. I had felt this real me at different throughout the years especially when I in a theatre class because I could feel that it was just under the skin and wanted to break through but it wasn't strong enough to do so till I took away what was repressing it. I have found relief in this period of time without a mirror and have found there is more hours in a day that I can use wisely to do more things but end up sometimes find myself running out of time to do things for I have become very busy as classes are ramping up with homework and other assignments too. With everything that has been going on, I have found it hard to find time to de-stress my brain from thinking every single day about what needs to get done so that I will have everything ready for when it is due. This project has given me insight into a new perceptive that I never would have had otherwise if I had choose something else for my project. I feel as if I have beat the mirror me into disappearing but I feel like she might make a reappearance someday but hopefully not any day soon because I love the person that has come out and turned into the real me that was lying underneath the surface for 16 long years. I hope that you can enjoy the conclusions that I have come to from undertaking this project.

Day 27 Part 2: Article

So this is continued from the first part which has the poem 'Mirror Mirror' by Leslie Callejas on it. I choose this poem as my last article because it truly sees in a way and explains what we, women look for sometimes (or most of the time) when we look in a mirror. It shows that we always have something on our minds even when we don't see it at first but then when we take a step closer, we start to see things clearer then they were before. It shows that we are understand that mirrors can show us what we don't what to see all the time. We wish to truly understand each piece that makes up us but can't unless we were take apart us piece by piece then there would be nothing left of us and most likely we still would understand every piece that we had just laid out in front of from themselves. I hope that you understand what I meaning but if not I hope that you enjoyed this poem.

Day 27: Article

So this the last article that will be posted on this blog but I have found a poem for you all the really reflects everything that has been going on throughout this who project. I hope that you enjoy it. Continued in Part 2.

Mirror Mirror by Leslie Callejas

Mirror-mirror on the wall
show me what you see
if you really reflect it all
show every piece of me

behind my eyes, behind my smile
deep into my soul
linger for a little while
show me all you know

not just a figure standing here
reveal all that's inside
show me, even though I fear
here and now, it's time

show
the bruised and battered place in me
the piece that just can't cope
the part that longs to be set free
the side where life's a joke

the innocence hiding behind the sin
the adult inside the child
the heart that won't let anyone in
the piece of me that's mild

the place in me that's always red
the part that's forever blue
the side that follows what is said
the piece that's always confused

the place in me that thinks I'm right
the part that knows I'm wrong
the side that's bloated up with pride
the piece that can't go on

the coward inside the fighter
the genius next to the dumb
the part that's drunk with laughter
the side that shies from fun

so, mirror-mirror on the wall
I'll step back so I can see
if you really reflect it all
and show every piece of me

Day 26: Article

So this was suppose to be an interview day but no one that I contacted could get back to me for me to write about it. So once again I'm doing an article instead of doing an interview. I found this article on the Daily Mails online newspaper. The article is called Women turning their backs on mirrors to ease constant pressure of having to look good. It was written Tamara Cohen back in August of this year. The article talks about how women are embracing the new trend of 'mirror fasting' to avoid the pressure of always having to look good. They say that those that have tried it have felt liberated and that is true because I'm having that feeling through my own project. Ms. Cohen was able to talk to Autumn Whitefield-Mardano, Kjerstin Gruys and their experiences with their own 'mirror fasts'. She also talks to
Dr. Phillippa Diedrichs, who is a psychologist that deals with appearance. Her opinion is that 'mirror fasting' is just another way to obsess about one's appearance. I hope that you enjoy this article that I have found for everyone.

Day 25: MIRRORS EVERYWHERE!!!!!!

So Today is my last free day before this project comes to a close on Sunday. It has been a little nerve racking know that in just 3 more days I will be uncovering my mirrors for the first time in 28 days. Today has been an extremely taxing day for reasons that will become clear. Everywhere I turned today, there were mirrors. I couldn't believe it for I knew that I had to try extra hard to not look at myself for the mirror was so close and it felt like it was calling me to look at myself again. It was somewhat terrorizing in a way being around all those mirrors today. Also my roommate decided that it would be a grand idea to lock me out of the room, while holding onto the lock when I only had like 2 minutes to get in and out of the room. She believes that it is funny, so she does this several times a day which gets me angry for I don't have very much patience with her anymore when she does it. I needed to go get some money before I went over to the Dixon Center to help sew up some costumes for Big River, tomorrow. I sewed on 6 buttons onto a pair of pants and ironed some shirts before I left to work on homework. But on the other hand I found out today in chapel from Senator Lamar Alexander that one of the Lee choirs will be singing at the swearing in of the new President in January 2013. We could believe and where so excited that Lee was going to be there. So I hope that you enjoy what I wrote about today. (The pictures are from Halloween at Lee)