So Today is that last day of this project and it has been harder then ever to not look in a mirror knowing that it is the last day. I have tried to remember to avoid the reflect surfaces and mirrors all day long. So far today I have felt like I have failed on this last day because I kept on seeing myself in all different types of surfaces that I have encountered today. Failing on the last day seems almost fitting because my project has come to close. It has been hard today because I had to go to Walgreens to pick up some photos that I had ordered, I had ushering duty for Big River at 1:30 till 5 pm and I went to a cookout at my teacher, D.W.'s (Dr. Williams) house where I didn't know the layout so I was unprepared for the amount of reflect surfaces that are in her home when I got there at 5:30 pm. I have decided that I will be taking down my post-it notes tomorrow inbetween the my first and second classes. I have felt really relieved that I haven't had the pressure to look in a mirror to double check that my hair is all in place because I know that I can ask my friends to tell me an honest answer. I feel like the real me has finally emerged from within me after 16 years of being repressed by the mirror me that had taken over my body in a sense. I had felt this real me at different throughout the years especially when I in a theatre class because I could feel that it was just under the skin and wanted to break through but it wasn't strong enough to do so till I took away what was repressing it. I have found relief in this period of time without a mirror and have found there is more hours in a day that I can use wisely to do more things but end up sometimes find myself running out of time to do things for I have become very busy as classes are ramping up with homework and other assignments too. With everything that has been going on, I have found it hard to find time to de-stress my brain from thinking every single day about what needs to get done so that I will have everything ready for when it is due. This project has given me insight into a new perceptive that I never would have had otherwise if I had choose something else for my project. I feel as if I have beat the mirror me into disappearing but I feel like she might make a reappearance someday but hopefully not any day soon because I love the person that has come out and turned into the real me that was lying underneath the surface for 16 long years. I hope that you can enjoy the conclusions that I have come to from undertaking this project.
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