So today was Day 16 of my no mirrors project. So far it has gone well but you can never know what might happen in the next couple of days. I have found that it is getting easier to avoid the mirrors or surfaces that might show my reflection and give me a hint of what I might look like. There are some surfaces that I'm having trouble not looking in like cars. When you walk by a car it is like there is something inside of you telling you look at yourself so that you can see your reflection in the shiny car next to you. So whenever I go out in a car I have to be extra careful not to look at myself because of this craving to look at myself if it could be called a craving at all. I hope that anyone out there can tell if this can be called one or not but to me it is so it shall be called one. I have also found that whenever I am coming never a surface where I would have to lift my head to even see myself in it I have been repeating in my head mind you "I shall not look at myself" over and over again. I know that this mind sound silly but it has been really helping me by without my reflection on how I look. Everyone so far has seen that my skin has been improving for the better plus they are realizing that this new me that is coming to surface is the real me not the me that has been grown over the years under the careful eyes of mirrors and the hash words of her younger brother. This new me feels as if it was there along but needed to be set free so that it might enjoy the warthm of the sun too but had never felt free to show because of the overpowering/ overbearingness of the mirror me if that is confusing it confuses me too. I'm hoping that this new me will remain when the mirrors come back and the mirror me stays away for as long as possible so that new me will blossom into something beautiful. I hope that you enjoyed today's post please tell me what you thought of it.
No comments:
Post a Comment